Can you ever really shake away the Mommy Guilt? Today is my youngest son's birthday. He is 4 years old. After work yesterday I brought my oldest son to his drama class and then planned on rushing to buy a cake for the daycare before I had to pick him up. Didn't think it would be so hard except that every cake I could come across in that hour had that little warning at the bottom of the ingredients list: May have come into contact with tree nuts! Of course his daycare is peanut-free so I can't get any of those cakes. As the clock was ticking I was getting more and more panicked that I wouldn't find his cake. That's when the mommy guilt started to set in. I could hear the little voice inside my head say: "I should have baked him a cake myself" (don't know when but I should have), "I should have spent the extra money and ordered a cake from a fancy bakery where I could make sure it was peanut free" (not really in my budget, but again, I should have). Finally the hour was up when I had to go pick up my son from Drama class and I was cake-less- "Worst Mother of the Year".
Thankfully, my father agreed to help me and he is running around right now trying to get a cake for him to bring to the daycare. I know it will be ok but I can't shake this Mommy Guilt!
That's one of the things that's hard about being a single, working parent. You want to be able to get everything done but the fact is, there just aren't enough hours in the day! I can get through the day-to-day pretty well but special events just throw me for a loop. Thank goodness that I have the support from my father and brother to help me out because I don't know how I would be able to get things done otherwise. I want to be able to give my kids everything they would get if they were part of a two parent home but sometimes I just can't. I don't like to complain about it. It's not really my style and I don't want anybody feeling sorry for me. I love my life it's just hard sometimes.
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